She has a little think about the Eastleigh by-election

She has a little think about the Eastleigh by-election
A little late but I've finally got round to putting my thoughts down. So the by-election was shaping up to be an important one. Would the Lib-Dems keep the seat after all the scandal following Chris Hume and Lord Rennard? Could the conservative party prove themselves and show that they could win more seats? Seats they so desperately need to avoid another coalition. Did anybody think Labour would have a chance? What about the UKIP party, would they finally emerge as a contender?
And the results have shown us a few things.
That dispite how much the Lib-Dems continue to cock up people are still willing to vote for them. That the conservative party really isn't reaching out to people, surprise surprise. UKIP have managed to gain a great amount of support and people are now being forced into taking them seriously. Also that Labour aren't really offering what people want, Labour are still not ready to win again.
All this shows me is that we really don't have many options at the next general election. Naturally I'd consider myself a Labour supporter but I have little confidence in Ed Milliband and the current party lineup. The conservative party clashes with the majority of my core beliefs and values. UKIP, to me, is a utterly unbearable party which should not under any circumstances be even considered a vote. (I plan to write a blog entry covering this.) Lib-Dems have never appealed to me, their broken promises and deceit never really attracted me.
So, what choice do I really have? I'm being asked to vote but all the options really don't appeal. I think thats its about time we had new parties established. Left wing parties to accommodate the people on the left who are disillusioned with the Labour party and feel they have nowhere to turn.
If a party was going to emerge, I'd say it should happen now.

~~Who knew I was political eh~~

She has got some news

She has got some news
Something happened today. Something unexpected and brilliant. Lately there is another boy (lets call him N), not the one whom usually stars in my blog (lets call him E), but someone else. N's kind and really sweet. He has also got a wonderful sense of humour, which I adore. We just get on so well, it never feels forced or awkward. He's just amazing.
And I've thought this for a couple of weeks and even though we're not that closer we've definitely been getting much closer. It's all really nice, and N makes me happier.
Well, and today, I was sitting down reading some work and he came up to me. He looked a little nervous and extremely adorable. Then N asked me if I'd go on a date with him, quickly I said yes.
So, that's my news I'm going on a date. With someone who is so unbelievably great.
With him its different from before. N is easy to get along with and he doesn't play games with me. N seems just to genuinely like me. Whereas E isn't like that. With E its all or nothing, theres nothing simple or fun about it. E doesn't make me happy.
I think I've got to decide and I know that N is the right choice. Its about time I let go of all the pain and misery E caused me. But also all the love and passion.
I'm really looking forward to my date with N, I know it will be great.

~~Thanks for reading~~

She thinks a little too much

She thinks a little too much
Is there such thing as a coincidence. Sometimes it seems very unlikely. Like when you're thinking about a friend and they call you. You freak out and think how spooky was that. But, step back a little, how many times have you thought about your friend and they haven't called you. 10? 40? 372548103086248725349264? I'd imagine every other time you've thought of them.
So can we put this 'spooky' thing down to coincidence, logic and probability?

~~thank you for reading~~

She needs to get something off her chest

She needs to get something off her chest
I get annoyed with this boy who says a whole lot. He constantly spurts out his self righteous truths condemning the actions of everyone else. He degrades the average person due to their very human mistakes. In his eyes only he has morals, everyone else over-demands, over-consumes and does everything in excess.
He is a vegan, which is something I myself can identify with. For around 7 years Ive not eaten any meat and the limited dairy I eat comes from a free range farm where I know the people and I'm assured of their ethics. However no one knows this about me. I don't throw this in the face of all people I come into contact with to prove how I'm a better person than them.
Because that's the thing he has missed somewhere. That conscious is subjective. We all don't have the same set of views and morals, we all do what we think is right. And truthfully that's all we can do, because at the end who do we have to answer to but ourselves.  

~~Settle child, you will grow one day~~

She is finding it hard to deal with

She is finding it hard to deal with
Why the fuck do you do this to me? Why would you want to hurt me?
Why me?
I wish you would leave me alone. I'm done with feeling this way. I'm done with you fucking me about because it makes you feel in control or more secure.
You've showed me love and I fucking hate it. I hate that I can't help but want to talk to you. That all I ever want is you. you. But you throw it in my face! why? because you fucking can
You're really shit you are. You have made me feel worthless and you know you're doing it.
You've fucked me over and fucked me up.


~~Fell in love and all I did was cry~~

She reflects on her life

She reflects on her life

I’m young enough for people to argue I haven't had enough of a life to note. However I think I've been through enough for a life time. I've been looking back on my childhood quite a bit really. I sometimes wonder how its changed and shaped me. If I'd been different if it had been. I think I'd be less insecure maybe. But I don't think I'd be as strong or have such a perspective.

It may shock you if you've read my blog before as I seem quite overly dramatic about little things (boys). However in reality I think I don't allow things to bother me or at least I don't allow people to show that they do.

That’s what brought me to write this blog, it’s a way for me to express myself and just say what I'm thinking. I get scared of telling people what has happened or what I'm thinking in case it changes their opinion of me.

I used to lie a lot as a child to cover up the truth. My lies were more innocent than the truth behind them.
I've stopped now. I just don’t speak at all.

~~To not speaking but learning to type~~

She studies history and she hates war

She studies history and she hates war
I'm currently studying the Vietnam war. I find it a really hard war to justify or even comprehend. Admittedly I'm left-wing and socialist so maybe I'm just on the wrong side. Anyway after studying this war in a hell of a lot of detail, I have some conclusions. I'm not disrespecting the fallen US troops as they were brave and courageous.

The north Vietnamese were fighting for their freedom.
The US were fighting in the name of freedom.
By the reality of war does not allow for freedom.

~~That is all~~